it hurts... a great deal
i shouldn't be in this current situation. as much as i like it, i hate myself for being in it. yes, i enjoy the heart pumping adrenaline rush. i enjoy that warm feeling inside. i enjoy the happiness that i get from it. i appreciate the way things are.
but i hate it when i get back and realize that things wouldn't come my way. i hate it coz i'm just a nobody instead of that particular somebody. i hate it when i can't have things my way. i hate it when i get disappointed at myself. i hate it when i couldn't do anything. and i hate it most when i need to pretend i'm fine with it!
just another moody weekend? i guess not. this is not just a mood swing or an emo weekend. this is something more than that.
2 Comments:
wow... i can really really relate to this... sum things that have happened in my life in the past couple of days are really relatable (is that a word?) to this blog...
:) it's good to know that someone out there is sharing the same emotions as i am :) i hope you'll be able to pull through your problems yea! :)
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